I find myself changing over time. Weird right? Used to, I was the guy that nobody didn't like. Maybe I still am. But the big difference these days is, I speak my mind more often. When someone tries to push me over or get away with some sort of injustice, I say something. Whether its on the basketball court where some dude makes an obviously horrible call, at the restaraunt I manage where some customer becomes offensively rude, or outside my apartment building where a dogwalker lets his mutt leave dung on our property, I now usually try to voice my distaste with their actions. Its a weird change for a guy who used to want everything to be "okay", whatever that is. I'm fighting against my developed nature. And its fun. But also uncomfortable at times. Because I'm also trying to love people more fully on a daily basis. And it would seem that confronting people causes my love to take a backseat. But then again, maybe I'm redefining what loving is for me. Love isn't being nice. It isn't smiling. It isn't letting people get away with their actions. Love is something different entirely. It is humbling yourself and putting others above you. Genuinely caring about others. Which does not disclude halting someone when his or her words or deeds are detrimental to those around them. To truly love someone, you have to earnestly be more concerned with their welfare than your own. You have to be willing to risk losing a friendship in exchange for telling the truth. A good friend might be stuck in corrosive habits and as a friend loving a friend, you have a job. Even if its uncomfortable. I guess I'm just saying that love can be and probably should be a bit uncomfortable at times.